Today's Horoscope
All signs:
Tonight you might find yourself being bored. For most people, that's not a problem. For most people, it's just a chance to read a book or catch up on the TV shows waiting on your dvr. Worst case, you go to bed early.
There are some people where boredom is a big problem, though. For instance, if you are a recovering alcoholic or addict, boredom is very bad news. If you are trying to overcome some bad behavior, brought on by whatever reason, ptsd, self esteem issues, etc, boredom can derail your life.
It is harder for you, because you are probably trying to avoid bad influences in your life. You have had to cut yourself off from situations or people you liked, but they were no good for you. Your options are limited, and you still probably miss it all.
If you give your brain time to think, it can think up some very bad ideas indeed. It seems to want to sabotage you every chance it gets. Boredom is its best opportunity. You will find your brain telling you that life used to be exciting. Drug use, risky sexual behavior, any kind of dangerous activities really, can seem like just the answer to your slow night at home. A few dull hours can undo months of work.
Your mind starts telling you that a couple of drinks won't hurt. The person that's no good for you isn't that bad, are they? You find yourself calling someone that still parties, just to say hi… and you've done it again. Messed your life up.
Maybe your brain tells you to do it so you don't feel old anymore. Maybe it tricks you into thinking that lapsing into bad behavior will just be a one time thing, for old time’s sake. Maybe it will make you feel vital, and young, and free. It won't, not for long anyway. Whatever it tells you, it's lies.
And this is the point where the stars can't help you. They can offer advice, and they try to warn you, but only you can make a decision and stop yourself from doing something you'll regret.
Obviously, I can't tell you to find something to do that will occupy your time. If there was something to do, you'd be doing it. Many times there are things to do, but your brain nixes them and tells you how lame it will be and to not even bother. Your brain will try to entice you with the carrot, and if that doesn't work, it will bring out the stick. It will cruely tell you that no one could love you, and you're never going to be any good, so why try at all? That's not true. All the stars can tell you is that's not real, that's a trick for your brain to get some dopamine by causing bad behavior, no matter what the cost to your well being. It wants you to say “why bother fighting it. Give in and feel young and exciting again!”
But it's not real. Don't believe what your head is telling you. Fight it any way you can. Call a friend or a family member, just to talk to or hang out with until the feeling passes. Call me if you want. I have been through and seen just about everything in this world, and I don't judge and I don't blame. Call a support line, if that sounds like a better option to you.
It might sound lame, and not that much fun, but if worse comes to worse, clean your room, organize your closet, clean out your refrigerator, do some exercise. You will feel better about yourself, because not only did you avoid your bad behavior, you accomplished something. I know it doesn't sound sexy, but it really works!
Just don't sit by yourself and try to take on your brain one on one, you will most likely lose. Then the next thing you know you will wake up in the morning, broke, beaten or disgusted with yourself, and it will be harder the next time. Please don't do that to yourself. No one has to be alone. That is a choice, and it will lead to a lot more bad choices if you're not careful.
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